July 13, 2003
Sit Back and Observe
Today was one of those “non-social” days. Do you ever have those? Where you really don’t feel like talking to anyone and all you can think about is getting home? I had one of those days today – it was really difficult, but, like most situations in life, I think it was really beneficial. Today was Sunday, and of course, Sundays are days when we are out of the house most of the day. I love the people at our church and I love fellowshipping with the people there before and after worship- but today I really struggled. Right after morning worship we went to a special birthday lunch- one with about 50 people. Then tonight, I had to play the piano for the worship service - which I was in no mood to do. And then this was the 2nd Sunday of the month, so the whole church had supper in the fellowship hall after church. Then I had to play the piano for the “hymn-sing” afterwards. Courtney helped clean up afterwards and I found myself wandering around looking for things to do so I wouldn’t have to talk to anyone. So, what’s my deal? I look forward to Sundays every week. I love to visit with my family that attends, worship with my Covenant family, talk to people I don’t see all week. I love to play hymns and hear God’s church raise their voices in praise. So why is it that every now and then I get in these weird funks? Why is it that all I wanted to do all day is just be at home? I’ve been brought up to think that when this happens that I am probably in sin; that anytime I want to close up and be by myself that I must be trying to hide some hidden sin. And I think that sometimes that may be the case- but couldn’t there be a time when it’s appropriate? I don’t know if today would have been a good day for that, but aren’t there times maybe when it is best for us not to be around others? That maybe meditation, self-analysis, and solitude are really needed to clear the mind and renew the spirit? I longed for peace a quiet today.
Thoughts from Lisa Huntington
Lisa, I have days like that too. As with days of sickness or poverty (or wealth), they might mean we're in sin, so we have to examine ourselves; but likewise, they don't necessarily mean we're in sin. Besides, if we are in sin, chances are, we need at least a moment's privacy to deal with our sin and be restored to full communion with God and His body.
Having said all this, the fact that you went ahead and served others, despite feeling non-social, is an attestation of God's grace in you. His peace be with you.
Posted by: jon amos at July 14, 2003 02:38 AMYour in sin you sinner! Repent!
Posted by: JeniLiz at July 14, 2003 11:10 AMJust kidding, you were just socially wasted from the night before.
Posted by: JeniLiz at July 14, 2003 11:12 AMI tend to do that, too, Lisa, and it's usually following a busy weekend or event.
Posted by: Shannon at July 14, 2003 11:58 AMI always feel weird posting on ppls blogs..mainly because I'm so young and I know i haven't gone through what everybody else has. But anyways, i think everybody gets in those "funks"....i've been in one for about a month now. And i do beleive that being stressed out and tired has something to do with it, and sin also could as well. I'm so glad you came yesterday though :) Thank you for being there, even though you would have rather have been home! Love you
Posted by: Kat B. at July 14, 2003 01:34 PMI, for one have NEVER seen Kat in a nonsocial "funk". I have stopped laughing now. Wait....OK now I've stopped.... no I'm still laughing.
Posted by: JeniLiz at July 14, 2003 02:28 PMYeah, sometimes I feel like whenever I'm out and around people I talk a lot, like I'm really outgoing. But whenever I'm home alone or otherwise all by myself, I just sort of clam up.
I think sometimes we are just tired. And while I wouldn't change the way we do Sundays at Auburn for anything, sometimes I just need to come home with Duane and curl up in bed for a few hours, even if I'm not sleeping.
Speaking of piano, Miss Judy asked me to play on the 27th. I need your help! Can I call you or possibly meet with you in the next few days to just go over the order of worship?
Posted by: Sarah at July 15, 2003 12:26 PMSure Sarah- call me or come by anytime- well pretty much anytime. I teach in the afternoons Tues-Thursday. I'm so glad you are going to be able to play. I told Mrs. Judy you might be willing to do it- I hope that was okay. I am going to be out of town the last two Sundays this month- what a blessing to have you!
Posted by: Lisa Huntington at July 15, 2003 01:09 PMIt is possible Jen, I do get "funks". But my "social butterfly-always talking" reputation is a bit depressing. There are times i'd MUCH rather sit in the back and just listen to ppl talk. Example: I went to the Mall with Calen and Marydrew the wednesday before they went to Virginia. I was happy just hangin out, and didn't say much the whole time. Even though I was perfectly happy, they kept asking me if i was sick or if i was mad...because i "wasn't talking". Sometimes, I'd like to have to "quite type" reputation. Or at least have ppl understand i like to just listen.
Posted by: Kat B at July 15, 2003 10:25 PMOh man....Duane just kills me. I'm at the library reading this when I read his post. The librarian had to ask me to stop laughing....
Posted by: SonofThunder at July 18, 2003 04:42 PM